In one of my sessions with my therapist, she mentioned that some people in the loss mom/grief community don’t like the term “healing”. Since that day, I’ve thought about that a lot. Every time I post something about finding healing, I think “hm, I wonder if anyone sees this and thinks I’m wrong for using that word?” That doesn’t keep…
I’ve been a book nerd for my entire life. I was the kind of kid who won class contests in middle school for reading the most pages, and I tried to be a Meteorologist in college, but couldn’t resist the pull of being an English major. Now, I run my book blog, Literary Quicksand. After Jonah, though, my reading habits…
Self-care…what is it, exactly? Obviously, self-care would mean caring for yourself, but how exactly do you do that when your heart is shattered and you can barely think or feel? Then after the shock fades and the depression sets in, what now? It’s possible that you just don’t feel like doing anything at all but staring into space. I’ve been…
It’s now been one week less than 4 months since we lost our dear Jonah. In that time, I’ve just felt like I HAVE to do something to help as many others going through this as I possibly can. It’s been an incredibly hard road, because I constantly have all these (sometimes crazy) ideas about what I can do, and…
It’s practically unbearable. The commercials, the social media posts, the signs…it’s everywhere. It’s a dark cloud, enveloping me in grief. The woman who made me a daughter is not here, nor is the son who made me a mother. I feel them with me and carry them in my heart, but they’re not physically here, and I miss them both…
Dear Jonah, If I had you I’d feel such joy, to love and hold you, my sweet little boy. We’d go for walks and snuggle lots, and have play dates with other tots. In my arms you’d be content, you’d be so cute; my dashing gent. Your dad and I would love on you, and hold you close and kiss you,…
After writing prolifically here on my blog several times a week since just a couple weeks after losing my son, it has been quiet (too quiet) for an entire week. Did anyone notice the tumbleweeds roll by? I posted a couple of things on Instagram, but have been otherwise MIA. The reason: this was one of the hardest weeks I’ve…