I found out I was pregnant with Jonah in the last couple days of July, 2016. That means we’re entering Jonah season. At this time last year, I was battling daily nausea, unable to eat much besides buttered noodles, corn chips, rice, and cottage cheese. I was in the “holy crap I can’t believe I’m pregnant and this is happening”…
My Dearest Jonah, Although all of my writing is always for you, it’s been a while since I’ve written a letter like this, straight to you. It feels so good to come back to this…talking to you directly. It was 7 months ago today that you came silently into the world, the day after your heart stopped beating. It feels…
This post was originally published on Medium on April 3rd – it was written 2.5 months after having Jonah. I decided it should live here on Letters to Jonah, too. So here it is <3 I’ve noticed some things since losing my first baby, Jonah, about grieving in our culture. I’m sure it varies across families, religions and ideologies, but…
I’ve been published on Still Standing Magazine for the first time! I’m so excited and humbled to be among such great writers, telling their stories of grief, loss, love, hope, and life. My first post is about our future selves, and how I’m dealing with the sudden change in the way I see my ideal future self. “I’ve been so…
Last month, I misplaced my dinghy. There I was, sailing along atop the turbulent waves of my grief, when I tumbled out of my little boat and it floated out of my reach. The waves of depression and grief pulled me under, and I struggled to find the surface. Depression is a real issue for a lot of people, but can…