In the very early days of my grief in January 2017, I started my blog, Letters to Jonah. At first, I used it only for writing letters to my stillborn son. It was my space for pouring my grief into, and everything I wrote was very personal, yet I felt the need for it to be public. I put my own writing out in the world because I was so desperate to find other loss moms writing about grief.
Reading their words made me feel less lonely and alone. I had never met any of them in person, but I felt such kinship with them.
I posted one of my letters to Jonah in a support group on Facebook for Hydrops Fetalis (fluid accumulation), a condition that my son had developed while he was fighting for life in my womb. It was a letter I had written only two weeks after Jonah was born, during my first time going out (and staying out) in public. I had brought my computer and journal to one of my favorite, cozy nearby coffee shops.
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