It’s been hard for me lately to write. *Gasp* I know, it’s hard to believe because of how much I was writing in my early months of grief! I just had so much to say at that time – so many feelings to talk about and get off my chest. I still have a lot of complicated grief feelings, but they’re just not as intense, which means I’m less compelled to write about them.
I miss writing. I miss it a lot! I’ve been feeling such a dip in my creativity, it’s hard to bring myself to even begin typing up a blog post. I have several I’ve started, only to give up because the words don’t flow. It’s really frustrating.
So, I decided to start journaling. Yep, actually picking up my journal and a pen and writing out my feelings, my daily activities, and anything else in my life. I’ve missed a good couple of days, but I’m not beating myself up over it. Instead, I’m doing what I can, letting myself off the hook when I forget or don’t feel like it. It’s going well so far!
Just sitting quietly with some paper and a pen is helping me feel more creative. It’s easier for things to flow out when I’m just writing about my day in a no-pressure sort of way, knowing that I’m not writing it to publish on the internet. I’ve also shared some articles on my Letters to Jonah Facebook page about daily journaling that have really inspired me! This world is full of inspiration, you just have to let it come naturally instead of forcing yourself to write something publishable every time.
Since journaling is making me feel good right now, I decided to do something that’ll help me continue it through the holidays, where feelings about not having my Jonah with me will probably be a little harder. I’ve decided to host a daily journaling prompt project through the holidays on Courageous Mothers! I’m calling it Grief Journaling Through the Holidays, and if you want to participate, you can sign up here. There’s no pressure – you don’t have to do every prompt. We’re all busy during the holidays! I just wanted to gather a group of women online who want to journal about their #mamagrief together through the holiday season. Let’s all support each other <3